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情人节快乐

2012-02-12T17:55:00.013+08:00

Twitter, Facebook and even newspapers are now all about Valentine.

This year is a little extraordinary for

me..

Happy Valentine's Day people! =)

ZOMG! By the way saw this from Cheesie's blog anybody know where can I get this in M'sia? wayyyy toooo cute me wantttttt squeezeeee....

arghhhhhh ♥♥♥♥~~~~

Eggs

2012-02-07T23:01:00.005+08:00

The other day, I opened Facebook early in the noon and it's FULL of eggs. So I decided to try them myself.

At first, I can't make them standing, so I keep changing to another eggs and FINALLY!!

My eggs can stand too!!!!

That awesome feeling when I finally did it !!!!! =D

Life of an iron

2012-02-01T17:57:00.005+08:00

My hair straightening iron died on me today on the first day of February :( after serving me for more than 3years, it didn't wasted its life in maintaining and groomed hair for almost everyday whether in straight or curl. Besides, it creates natural curls more beautifully than my curling tong :( Goodbye sayonara :( Now I need to spend for new straightening iron!! And it isn't cheap!! ARGH!!!! fml fml fml

CNY!!!

2012-01-26T23:44:00.010+08:00

Hello there!! Happy Chinese New Year all readers =) Haven't been updating my blog lately. It's not that I'm very busy but nothing much to write about so here's some pics on...

CNY Day 1

Well, family and I always had this tradition. We go for movies on day 30th and 1st day of CNY..

Trust me, Moo Cow Yoghurt ice-cream is soooooo good!

CNY Day 2!

Pulang ke kampung ibu, it was kinda jam spent like half the day in the car I almost fainted

Do you remember to place ur angbao underneath ur pillow??

No pictures on CNY Day 3, spent a night in Taiping, get together with relatives and came back on Day 3. Thank God no traffic jam, God hear my prayers. But he didn't hear my prayers on SUPREME and gave 57million to an old man!! Oh dearrrrrr.. I will have to just try again :(

CNY Day 4

Shopping at 1U and dessert!

The Water Dragon year is not a good year for Dragon (myself) I guess I gonna live an ordinary life this year.

once upon a time

2011-12-15T05:51:00.017+08:00

It was night when everything were closed

we sat down in silence by the lake

and watched the swans swim peacefully

slowly they dissapeared in sight

like slowly.. u dissapeared

will i find u?

if i chase along your fading shadow?

or will i lost track

once the sun has rise up?

So I'll hide my heart away...

2011-12-14T01:00:00.008+08:00

I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You disappeared one day.

do u know there are times i wished i could write songs too?

i'll write one for you and i

(edited)

couldn't fall asleep

lately i've been having so much dream

very sweet dreams that it almost felt too real

until i open my eyes seconds later and notice that

i'm back to reality

in an instance tears drop flow through my face

and then i started crying

knowing that just an illusion

would never going to happen

somehow im glad it did once

some of the most beautiful things only happen in dreams

Sometimes a song can bring you back to everything you tried to forget

2011-12-08T14:08:00.009+08:00

One woman loves you

She loves you with all her heart

Everyday, she follows you around like a shadow

She is laughing, but actually crying.

How much longer that I must gaze at you like this alone?

This meaningless love, this miserable love

If I continue this way, will you love me?

Come closer a little bit more

If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.

I who love you am next to you now.

That woman is crying.

That woman now is very timid

So she learnt how to laugh

There are so many things that she can't tell her closest friend

That woman's heart is full of tears.

So that woman said that she..

loved you because you were the same

Such a fool. Another fool

Won't you hug me once before you go?

I want to be loved, my dear

Everyday in my heart, in my heart

I shout out

That woman, is still in your side

That woman… is me, do you know ?

Don't tell me you know and are doing this to me?

But you won't know my dear, you're a fool

How much longer that I must gaze at you like this alone?

This foolish love, this miserable love

If I continue this way, will you love me?

Come closer a little bit more

If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.

I who love you am next to you now.

That woman is crying.

lessons

2011-12-05T03:59:00.004+08:00

Some people come into your life, teach you a lesson and then leave.. and its very true..

i've learnt

person 1 : you may only have a chance in 1 thing, so whenever opportunity comes grab it, not all things can have second chance

person 2 : being happy or unhappy you still call it a day, so make it a happy one

person 3 : sometimes you must think in a mature way, in another point of view

and lately i've learned something else, that is to be strong. i noticed i was very weak, 1 year ago i was weak, 1 year later i'm still as weak, so i knew i must change, and look things at another perspective

love yourself before u love others, i was too busy loving others and forgot about myself. here's the other lesson, this mistake i will not repeat again. a promise to myself

..

2011-11-28T15:37:00.008+08:00

My old Olympus died on me months ago, and I've been dying for a camera since. If it isn't for mum's company trip, I wouldn't have the chance to convinced her to get this hahahaha XD

The S95 comes with Manual setting which until now I'm not quite sure how to use, so I just remained at Auto Menu

My room is very dark so this is how it looks under dim yellow light

HAHAHA pls ignore the fugly background (not my room), I seriously love the 28mm wide lens, it can even reach the ceiling LOOK!

Macro Mode

Please ignore this face =X I just got up okay! With minimal makeup almost nothing.

I love how the vibrant colors look under sunlight and the sharpness of this cam! Love it! =D

December

2011-11-24T19:26:00.010+08:00

WHY NO BALANCE??!!

Idiot accounts FML It's damn irritating when u keep counting & counting but you don't know where's the mistakes GGGGGGRRRR

Exactly 1 more week to finish finals

It's pretty long because usually exam only takes within 1 week!

But this time it's 2 weeks.

THINGS TO DO AFTER FINAL EXAM (to remind myself)

- make new IC

- email Mr.Koh so that next sem timetable doesn't clashes *its my last sem YAYYYY*

- Shop for new cosmetics and skin care!!

- Search for partime and work like a cow for my BALI trip *semangat!!

- Create my resume

- Take my passport from the deposit box

- Shop for new dress for Christmas

- Learn something new

- Search for my missing SPM cert (don't know where the hell I placed it)

- Live a healthy lifestyle for example go jogging with sis

- Must learn how to swim (for my secret plan)

- Clean my room

- Go to the temple, ask dear God for blessings

- Read a book (any book that's interesting for example 2012 horoscope & fengshui *I know lol WTF* or something like Men from Mars, Women from Venus *lol something like that lahh*)

- Drink more coffee to redeem my Starbucks planner

- Lose weight although I just weight myself today and I'm officially 45kg *so proud buahahaha* but I still wana lose a bit more, basically I didn't starve myself or whatsoever, I just cut down on sugar intake that's it, and no junk food.

- Trim my hair & color if possible

- Redeem my Hello Kitty hair straightener

- Visit Dr.Ranjit

- Change my freaking ringtone

Well, can't think of what else to do after exam. The sem break is only 1 month so can't really achieve too many motive within this short time.. That's it lah =)

接受

2011-11-22T13:56:00.003+08:00

如果女人无怨无悔为他所爱的人，他就会感动吗？

You are a very ugly person without dignity if you keep on going like this.

But, we are all humans.

Give yourself time to be sad, after that start a new life.

P.S. I Love You

2011-11-18T02:55:00.005+08:00

Actually I don't know what exactly he's singing lah, but I feel so sad when I saw this :( I feel it deep deep deep! I mean, CHOI not like anyone died, but I feel her lost.

not well..

2011-11-14T00:25:00.004+08:00

Omgosh, my body and head feels like breaking apart

Feeling so sick

Why now?! I need to get well for Tuesday's presentation,

I need study for finals :(

So many things waiting for me to do

What happened to me,

getting sick all the time lately.

Why?

2011-11-10T23:00:00.006+08:00

They said if you want something, you should fight for it. But why am I always the one fighting? Whose fighting for me? I know I sound fucking emo here again, but...Who would feel my pain?

WO HAO LEI LE!!

I told myself stop, I'm not fighting anymore. But seems like my heart's controlling my brain? I wish to slap myself ten times in the face but I'll never wake up. WHY?!

Why do I always allow love to climb over me? Sometimes I wish I'm born heartless, at least there's no love & hate!

I FUCKING HATE YOU THIS THING CALLED LOVE!

They said there are many other achievements you can have other than love,

Many other things that as long as you put your heart & soul into it,

u'll succeed.

But why am I only putting love in priority?

Am I NUTS? Don't I have brains to think wisely??

They said a libra always think in pairs & don't feel complete without love in their life.

I guess it's so damn fucking true........

Think I'm born with this!

Sometimes I wish to prove myself wrong,

I wish.

Someday.

Being lonely is always better than being heartbroken.

I always reminded myself this.

Again and again..

But why??

There are so many other things to do other than just sitting there and being unhappy.

So silly right?

Sometimes I laugh at myself, for being so stupid.

And I'm sure a lot are laughing at me too, for being such idiot, for being so weak.

I guess love will never bring me happiness.

One moment of happiness brings thousands of tears.

I rather not.

I'm really tired.

I wish to wake up tomorrow and feel different..

All I want is just to be happy.

...just to be happy.

Dear GOD,

I always believe in you.

Please help me,

please guide me,

Please take away my pain,

Lead me..

:O

2011-11-08T18:16:00.004+08:00

ZOMG! FINAL EXAM IN 2 WEEKS!

Hello to restless nights ! :(

Just done with all the assignments

THANK GOD

Left with 2 more presentations and I'm done =D

And then comes the very last sem

Seriously I can't wait !!!!

The truth is..

2011-10-29T18:16:00.003+08:00

....when a man says he doesn't know what he wants, RUN...

what he really means is, he doesn't want you.

Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you.

OMGWTFICANTBELIEVETHIS

2011-10-14T03:40:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

3.40 A.M. & I'M STILL AWAKE!!

....STUDYING......!!!

& BEST OF ALL...NOTHING ACTUALLY ENTERS MY BRAIN

IMMA GOING NUTS SOON!

..................

2011-10-01T14:23:00.007+08:00

It's not the break up that truly hurts, it's the heartache you feel every time you hear their name, see, or remember them.

Congratulations to myself, for the past 1 year plus almost 2 years I had been fucked up with my relationships. So imagine how much tears I've shed.

1 thing I've learned, if a man changes his heart, you just got to let go, nothings gonna change no matter how much effort u put and no matter how long you've wait.

Because, they can be so mean. And I mean it, men are mean. And sometimes it makes me wonder, have you ever loved me?? It's really hard to tell if they are for real..

2nd lesson, love runs when u start chasing them. Then, it come to you when you've stopped chasing. Therefore to me, luvs never gonna meet. Either one runs, or one chase. Really really fucked up.

If you were to ask me, have I moved on? What is the terms of moved on?? Not a single day that I did not have you in my mind. I mean like I can't control what to think right ??? Once a while in a day, not within my control, the thought of you still appears..

But I can proudly say, I've let go..

Though it's not easy to forget someone, it might take forever or never. If you've really loved somebody so much, I don't think you've ever gonna forget him. Somehow, he'll be a part of you, somehow, there's still a lil space in your heart that he'll remains, that cannot be erased.

And going through so much, I don't know whether it had made me stronger or weaker now, I start feeling tired, tired of this thing called love. And it's so hard to trust again.

Love, something so beautiful. Never for me.

Well said..

2011-09-26T13:44:00.002+08:00

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” ― Bob Marley

For the first time

2011-09-11T15:53:00.004+08:00

Ok this is a very boring post, just a blog post with pictures.. lol.. I was trying out with center parting, not quite sure if it looks good on me

From side parting, I flipped it to the middle but somehow it looks kinda weird here *pls ignore the retarded pose and YES I am in the washroom* ignore ignore

Then, I tried to straighten my fringe with the straightener a lil bit, so that it kinda blends together *if u know what I mean*

Guess it's not too bad

Teehee :D

*pardon me if I look tired in the pictures, it was 4 in the morning after a BBQ, massage, and karaoke ;P

When is the happiest moment of your life?

2011-09-09T14:02:00.002+08:00

How can you ever forget someone when you spent the happiest moment of your life with?

I'll never forgets you.

Sunday morning..

2011-08-21T19:45:00.003+08:00

Suddenly I felt like my lifestyle has become healthier coz...

Tadah! Morning walk on a Sunday morning!

For my entire life I was sleeping during this hours of the day...lol

Should I thanks BB for sucky camera bcoz surprisingly this was my bare face totally makeupless... I usually look absolute fugly when I try to snap without any make up on.

New luvs ^^ Kitty laptop casing, mouse pad and mug :b

Have I told you lately..

2011-08-13T02:47:00.007+08:00

Fuck the eye bags. Ignore them, it must be either sleeping too late during the sem break or crying too frequent. But those were the days, life goes on therefore I choose to move on. But deep inside my heart I doesn't wants to move on to sem 5 -_- I'M STILL ON HOLIDAY MOOD MAN!

2 weeks is never enough!! Not even 2 months! They should have 3 months summer holiday =) How nice would that be? Been going for yoga classes lately at True Fitness but I never see myself gotten any slimmer, all because I had curry, curry and curry after every session.. oh boy -_-

And I need to slim down down down for Langkawi trip XD Hunting for bikinis too, argh but I don't wear them the way they are =( I'm too fat therefore I have to layer them with something else... ughh. How I wish to have long sexy legs with long hands, and ofcourse, taller in order for the legs to look long. haha. yeah I will giv up 1 year of my life for that. Not to forgotten a sharp face too, and might as well large boobies too.

By the way, I'm extremely disappointed with my resultsssssss :'( *hits on the wall* All of them r sooooo close to fucking A!!! I shouldn't have sleep so much gggrrrr I shouldn't have watch my tvb drama wtf -_- I should have loved my books moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =(

Sem 5 timetable clashes, as expected, I think I'd only graduate on Aug next year. FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE that is like 1 fucking more year. Thanks to Mr.Kho Wen Lin for the dumbass timetable. Thank YOU!!!!!!! Xie xie!!!!!

Levain!

me, being silly..

n then couldn't stop the laugh..

oh boy uploading these made me so hungry nao!

Tiramisu is so good :)

to myself with love

2011-07-11T23:06:00.005+08:00

I do not regret waiting.

It's a path I've chosen and it's exactly what I want

I have faith in what I believe

and this is all I can do...

This all I can do..

I'll never give up no matter how much pain I'm facing now..

No matter what others say..

will never change me..

Because this is what I want.

And if one day things didn't come out to what I expected..

Though I know I will break down for some time..

I'm not strong,

but I will

someday..

over come this.

I have no regrets.

I'm grateful.

2011-07-08T18:11:00.004+08:00

Thanks all my babes for always being there for me *luvs*

All of you helped me a lot, for bringing me back up again =)

Now it's time to focus on FINAL exam,

for the same time, of course need to chill out too ^^

Dinner with snowy :)

Never Be Replaced

2011-06-19T15:50:00.006+08:00

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go ..

... but If I have to boy I think that you should know ..

All the love we made can never be erased ..

And I promise you that you will never be replaced ..

I love you .. YES I DO ..

I'l be with you as long as you want me to ..

Until the end of time ..

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together ..

And now I know I wanna be with you forever ..

I wanna marry you, and I wanna have your kids ..

It can never compare to the feeling of your kisses ..

I can say I'm truly happy to this day ..

You've made me thank God that I live my life everyday ..

There's never been a doubt, in my mind ..

That I regret ever having you by my side ..

But if the day comes that I have to let you go ..

I think there's something I should probably let you know ..

Enjoy everyday, that I spend with you ..

*** AND I WILL MISS YOU CAUSE I'M HAPPY THAT I HAD YOU AT ALL .. ***

What does it mean??

2011-06-15T17:56:00.005+08:00

I asked God last night to lead me the way.

I asked him to show me in my dreams.

But I dreamed of you..

..

2011-06-10T14:49:00.005+08:00

All the positive-ness I mentioned before was all useless. I thought I'll be alright, I thought I can overcome it. But........I can't. I get weaker and weaker, each day by day. I lost focus on else things. Who said sleeping can forget about things you dont want to remember? No... I even dreamed about it. I'm really feeling so scared right now. I really don't know what else I can do.

I cried before I can sleep, I woke up suddenly then I cried in the middle of the night, woke up again then I cried in the morning. I cried when I was bathing, when I was taking my meal, when I was halfway in the lecture class it comes to my mind and my face would turn red and tears running in my eyes.

What should I do? :( I really feel so san fu. Sometimes I feel like I wanna talk to my mum. She's always the rational n strong woman. But she has so much problem facing right now, grandma in hospital, and my sister really unhappy now and she got to worry about her as well. I dont want her to worry about me as well.

Snowy asked me to stay positive. If I want to cry, cry it all out once then I'll be better. But no :( same thing repeated everyday, every night. I hate to look myself in the mirror, how ugly I look.

Face it, be stronger as you grow. Nothing comes easy.

2011-06-09T12:24:00.008+08:00

I was very emotional and lost for the past few days. It feels like doomsday to me I wished it was December 2012 and I could burn in fire and die, I was scared, very very scared for things I have never ever imagined I would be facing right now, for a time I doesn't want to accept the fact, stubborn and tried to change and fix things around. I spent an average of 1 and a half hours daily crying under my blanket and not knowing what to do. But thank to Snowy she taught me that there are some things in life cannot be forced, we should let it be and not being stubborn.

Sometimes you should let go of something and if it really comes back to you at the end, means its really yours. Or else, you just had to go through with it. I always believed in fate, what is meant to be, its meant to be. No matter how difficult the situation is, I've been through the worst days of my life, I can go through this as well.

Well, I will try to stay positive. In the past, someone taught me that whether I'm happy or not I still have to go through it, so might as well be a happy girl instead of a sad gurl. I will not let alcohol to heal my pain like I used to before. Whatever you taught me I still remembers it deep in my heart.

i m who i am

2011-06-08T22:50:00.004+08:00

HEY STRONG LADY

You are, you will, you always do :)

In life there's ups and downs, never let them change who you are.

Love , Yumi

No more.

2011-06-06T17:11:00.008+08:00

The last post was removed because I doesn't want to upset you with things I wrote posted to the public. Well, friends who knew me knows that whatever I have in my mind, I share it online. It had been a habit to me even since the existing of msn, and that was like many years ago.

To everyone, I think I always gave them an impression of being emotional all the time, and definitely not proud of it, I just thought that maybe I could release what I had been thinking, or even feeling. Sometimes I have no where else I could share my feelings, and no one would understand how I was feeling. I know these was wrong, some things are meant to be remain private.

Now onwards, I shall learn to be keeping them all to myself, and not exposed them to public and not showing people how weak I'm feeling. Maybe I should only share happy thoughts. The end.

Picture blog :)

2011-06-05T00:28:00.004+08:00

Picture says it all..

Dont know why I love you, but I love you.

2011-05-29T02:28:00.005+08:00

Ugliest picture ever!!!!! But also the most memorable :) The first time we eat together, the very first time we had our picture taken, the first time he drove me around, heard him laugh lol.. the first time i get to look at him closely from the back.. the first time with the 'i think i want him' feeling. hehehehhe

exams FU

2011-05-24T22:51:00.003+08:00

Today's exam was awful :( Tmr's having ecommerce. 11 essays to memorize.. really really really siens.. my eyes are like half open now but insisted to blog even though I'm wasting my time but to KEEP ME AWAKE.

I can't wait for Thursday to come.. hohoho.. can't wait to have baby champ on my hands :) been waiting for sometime, it's specially for mum.. hope she loves it.. ngek :b

this was me having lunch today :O

A letter to 18 year old self.

2011-05-21T15:04:00.008+08:00

I read Aud's letter to her 16th years old inspire me to do this too :)

Dear 18 year old Yumi, this is you writing on your 23 year old. On your 18 you just finished high school, u will be all inspired to learn hair dressing because u hated studies..oh just incase if u hadn't gotten ur SPM results, sadly u fail Add Maths. Dont be upset about it because mom wouldn't be blaming u for failing.

Before u join A Cut Above Academy, u will be staying at home four months doing nothing, slacking and surprisingly u lose weight to 44kgs. And remember this, I still think the 44kg u on the age 18 is most perfect :) You were cheerful, happy go lucky, and never been hurt before. You were having your first boyfriend, but u met someone special on the academy. At last u broke up with ur first love and later get together with ur second boyfriend.

Both of you will be so close together, u enjoy doing things with him, though he is abit fat, but u always thinks that he's cute. And you always get to bully him. Later when u graduated from hair dressing, both of u start working together. He'll become one of your best friend for the coming 3 years.

As days passes by and you both meet everyday. Somehow you start to lose feelings towards him. You'll feel he's just not that man u wanted. And deep down u know u wont marry this guy. Eventually, you broke off with him. You will be very upset, you feel so sorry to him, you lose your best friend, you cry and he ask u back a several times. But you couldn't go back to him, because you will find someone new again.

Yumi I warn you.. The 3rd and the 4th man you'll be falling for is a mistake. Both of them hurt you so deeply especially the 4th one, mayb it's a karma that you broke off with your second ex. What goes around comes around. You hurt someone badly, end up you'll be hurt too.

For the whole year of 2010 your life will be miserable. You will have your worst Birthday being single, it is very sweet that ur best friend Snowy arrange a japanese buffet for your birthday but deep down you expect a call from the 4th guy, but dont be stupid Yumi. He'd never call. Though, he was your sweetest nightmare.

Oh dont forget you got into college too. Eventually u will find being a hairdresser has no future so mum convince you to go back to studies. You are like 5 years behind??? Everyone else is so young and innocent. Sometimes u think u can hardly communicate with them but you will meet Jane. Both of you share almost the same interest and you both will stick like a glue in college.

You spend your longest time being single, 7 months with a broken heart. I can tell you it is the worst, you spend almost every night crying, thinking about him. But dont worry Yumi, you will slowly let go. You meet someone new again in college and never in life u thought u will be in a relationship with your college mate coz all of them are younger than you, and yes indeed the 5th man u will meet is a year younger than you.

But alot more matured. He is the one who always ask you to be happy. He help you in studies and teach you to be a better person. He is a very very very quiet person, you will never know what's in his mind. He's the first man that you make your first move.

Sooner, you'll be crazy over him. When both of u get together, for the first time u feel it is as if it's a miracle, for someone you love, loves u back. But Yumi, even though he is ur college mate, both of u spend very little time together. Sometimes it gives u hard time because you'll b missing him badly, and somehow u feel he's not putting u in priority. You will wonder that maybe he loves spending time with his buddy more than you??

And this is for you to find out, coz the 23 year old now me, is still clueless of what's going to happen.

Love, 23 year old Yumi :)

=(

2011-05-21T01:35:00.000+08:00

t i r e d

2011-05-11T19:04:00.002+08:00

urgg im so tired tired tired tired !!!!!!!

SO TIRED !!!!!!!!

seriously I need a GOOD sleep.......

every single day have to wake up so early...make my brains cannot function

crazy classes in the morning..

YER !!!!!!

mmmmmmmmmm

sis is at TAIWAN right now~

how nice...I wish I could go with her..

But no human willing to sponsor me..

fucking poor life..

I forgot when was the last time I even got a dress !!

but its okay...

since dear dont likey me wearing dress

he thinks that my dresses are very short..

mmmmmm

so I hardly wear them now..

bad day

2011-04-23T02:25:00.005+08:00

right now i'm blogging with my bb right before i sleep.. sigh today's a bad day, since early morning my bbm is not functioning, msg cannot be delivered to receipients.. then afternoon there was a very very heavy rain that the ceiling on my sister's room dropped.. i had a shocked when i saw, next i found tat my modem kena 'pek' from lightning :( sigh...

note: i wrote this on friday 22nd but posted on saturday (today)

if i could whisper to you...

2011-04-16T23:44:00.005+08:00

I misssssssssssssssssssssss youuuuuuuuuuuu BABY LUV !!!!!!! oh gosh this feeling is killing me.. I seen him for less than 5hours this week...sigh

Tuesday - 4hours

Thursday - few minutes journey walk from the college lift to classroom..

I miss him so much I almost got insane..all I can do is recall back the time when he's in my arms :) The feeling so warm..

I always recall back the feeling when he's with me.. And the deepest impression is when the times I un-noticingly fall for him..

omg...my heart beats so fast like a roller coasterrrrrrrrrrrrr when he suddenly appear! And I tried to calm myself downnnn n relaxxxx...

and I hated it alot when he sits behind me in class, because liddat I couldn't see him from the front. For that times I wished I have my eyes on the back of my head :P

I cut my hair SHORT !!

2011-04-15T14:57:00.008+08:00

Okay not exactly that short ! But I never had this length of hair since secondary school ! I always dreammm of cutting it short but was never dare to !

TADA!

Before~!

After~!

that is why..

2011-04-08T17:56:00.008+08:00

Back to college this week.. I can say this sem, not very motivated.. My heart n soul is still on the holiday break.. More over this sem I wont be seeing my dear in class anymore *cries* Were not classmate anymore ;( Never.. wuuwuu hardly can see my baby. I miss him very much.. All the time! And it's dear's last semester before he graduate diploma.. and me....a longggg way to go more ;( I'd be old..fml *forget about this since I can't change anything* Sometimes I feel so blessed.. to have my baby with me :) I love the way he always remind me to drink lotsa water.. the way he insisted me that I must bath before go to bed *I don't always bath before I sleep but it's a habit now* also the way he insisted to peel the prawn's skin for me *although I like to peel with mouth* and so much more heeeee =b Sometimes I missed him so much and I feel so upset and hug my pillow, but Snowy reminded me it's not a bad thing to be missing each other at all =) Seriously there's no other men have ever cared for me as much as my baby does *except my lovely daddy* I had lost love before, it's never been easy, therefore I appreciate all I'm having now. Baby if you are reading this I want to tell you that sincerely, I love you XD

rawrrr

2011-03-22T15:59:00.003+08:00

How good if there's no such thing as pimpless??!!!!!!!! Imma so kek dung right now! Fuck you pimples, because of you I have never once had good skin beforeeee.. fuck fuck fuck! Don't you get less when I get older? argh bullshit

And I'm too broke for special treatment right now.. oh FML..

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2011-03-22T15:23:00.002+08:00

Someone who really loves you sees what a mess you can be, how moody you can get, how hard u are to handle, but still wants u in their life.

=)

untitled...

2011-03-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

Right now I'm nom-ing on my favourite korean seaweed.. hoho.. I'd never had enough of it !! I hope someone could get me a whole box or even a whole container of seaweeds I would eat it all !! It would stay forever as my favourite untill I dieee.

It has been almost a week now since my baby berry enter ( aka BlackBerry ) into my life and I'm loving it ^^ I'm gona love and take good care of baby berry for the coming next 3 yearsssssssss...!! BYE to rubbish phone but it now stays as my daily alarm clock =P

I still love the alarm from rubbish phone because I could set 5 different timing alarms with the most loudest ringtone. It never fails to wake me up daily unless I really turned into a sleeping mummy.

Done with semester 3, done with final exam this week. It's now holiday again *yay* but one thing I hate about semester break is the time baby luv going back to Kuching, never the less for this time as well. Baby luv will be leaving to Kuching tmr afternoon.

I'll miss him so badly =( Somehow I wish 12days would past in a blink of an eye, for another reason I want it to goes slowly because I don't wana go back to college so soon !! argh.. I don't wana wake up at 6am everyday I would die and turn into a zombieeeeeee.

And I'd be so exhausted and lack of beauty sleep and full face of pimples and no time to spend time with my baby luv =( Oh God Bless Me.

to make this blog post abit bit less boring
I've added an old picture from some random folder

pls ignore the hiao face -.-"

I'm blogging again..

2011-03-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

Joined baby dear for badminton today. I almost forgot when was the last time I actually exercised >.<>

This was baby Jay's concert last weekend.. at the putra indoor stadium

well I know it looks kinda farrr n tiny in the picture here, but I could see him about the size of a 20cent i guess.. so its okay, it was alot better compare to the previous concert in the Merdeka Stadium but the sound system was kinda bad, I can barely hear what he was singing. Maybe because it's an indoor stadium or something.. I dont know..

my DIY crackle nails

very very difficult application because the crackle polish dries up too quick even before I can spread it evenly on the nails !

finally succeed about an hour application.. I guess I'll apply this again ONLY when I have alot of spare time !

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2011-03-06T20:09:00.003+08:00

It was so clear the first time I ever looked at my baby, its the beginning of sem 2. I was at the library, waiting for dad to pick me up after class. Was bored and I had nothing else better to do but observing people so I stared at him and I supposed he wasn't aware that I was there.

Wasn't sure what was I thinking that moment...for sure one thing I was staring at his hair, its so straight n spiky. Now I know why...haha my baby straighten his hair as well :) I'm not alone. My baby wakes up 2 hours before n prepare too...lol

For all the time when I first knew him, I didn't know what was he thinking. It's really hard to read him. But for all he is, I feel that he's true. I remember there's a time I was just jokingly asked him to teach me Business Law assignment, he agreed n stayed at home to make sure that I could reach him if there's any problem regarding the assignment.

Seriously, its some sort of miracle when the person u love, loves you back. You never show your feelings until the first time we filled our fingers together. The first time you said I love you =) The first time we hugged and kissed. Baby dear my love for you is unconditional. I would not ask for anything but only for your, love.

Finally

2011-02-27T13:14:00.002+08:00

A dream coming true ^___^ very very soon..

I do not regret, it worth all the wait.. hoohoh !!

I'm gonna miss u.... my rubbish phone =P

mine

2011-02-25T15:08:00.006+08:00

I miss my baby dear ^_________________^ Not sure if I gona meet him this weekend, since everyone is rushing for assignments. Argh I hate assignments n final exam is just in 2 weeks time =.= everything sooo rushh !!

I never been blogging for a long time...lot of things to be updated..hehehe. Well, in the previous previous previous weekend (not sure how many weeks ago) baby dear n I went to Genting, together with James Gor & In Rou. Planned to go up straight after class, but unfortunately James Gor doesn't have the key to leave the house, we couldn't attend for class n later went to Snowflakes instead =P

us :)
I look like a pregnant lady wtf =.=

my sayang ^^
hehe during the time.. baby dear n I were still normal friends..

but something special happened =P

The week after, it was Valentine.

and now he's officially mine ^^

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$_$

2011-02-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

BB
sexy cheong sam
red heels
topshop
vacation to Bali

NEED $$$ DESPERATELY !

how . how . how . how . how

The more u love.. The more it hurts..

2011-01-29T14:37:00.004+08:00

I accidentally over plucked my eyebrow, there's an obvious hole now =.= and this is not the first time it happened.. 10days of CNY break started yesterday :) It supposed to be another week longer, but due to this is a short semester, all lecturers are rushing to finish up the syllables so we got to have extra classes.. no~ =(

I don't know why. I love staying at home lately. Especially when CNY is coming, there's alot of things I need to wash n clean up. But most of the time, I'm just sitting infront of my pc n FB =.= what a life.

Last but not least! I gained weight =( all my tube dress are getting tighter n tighter :'( huhu

爱 ?

2011-01-25T03:07:00.006+08:00

What love is? I had forgotten how is the feeling.. Why some falling in love, so simple yet pure.. Sometimes I envy lovers, always having each other by the side.. spending time n doing things they like together..

I miss those moment.. I once had..where everything is so simple...nothing to worry about.. But it's been too long.. when was the last time where my fingers filled between fingers.. When was the last time I had someone to hug when in the cold.. I dont remember anymore..

end of sem 2..

2010-12-03T13:04:00.004+08:00

Time flies.. It's the end of sem 2.. Finals over, ugh I did not did my best but somehow I tried. Business Law I almost gave up and left 4 essay questions totally blank. I was like thinking.. wtf.. I will never score for Business Law and I have no idea where on earth to look for the answers even though it was an open book exam.. oh fuck.

The rest of the subjects was alright.. I supposed?? haha forget about it, it's HOLIDAY BREAK now!! With loads of plan in mind, limited amount of cash. That's very frustrating. 2nd thing, I FINALLY got my DREAM SHOE!! Charles n Keith, their having sales right now. I've been thinking bout 'her' for more than 2months~ Finally got it hohoho..It's freaking 13cm tall!! *yes I measured*

Update..

2010-11-27T22:12:00.003+08:00

This blog is seriously abandoned. I feel so sorry to my little pink blog.. LOL will try to update moreeee.. I promise hahha! well well.. I think for 2 months I didnt really update, now final exam is around the corner again... So I'm here to motive myself! GAMBATEH YUMI LAI!!

Alright.. enough about exam.. Today I saw a pair of eyes that look so similar to 'his' eyes.. The eyes the stare that I had been missing all the time.. But.. I don't feel sad about it anymore.. I guess time really heals..

Or maybe thanks to the person itself.. If he didn't had called me again that night.. It wouldn't have 'waken me up'.. All the time I had been guessing.. Wondering things.. Wondering why.. Wondering how has he been.. Now I know the answer..

I really know.. And I know what I want.. That person is not right n we r not meant to be even from beginning.. I am just somebody who was blinded by love.. and couldn't see what's at the front.. Now when I open my eyes, altough sometimes I still think of him.. But it already had no meaning..

In life..we should appreciate the person who appreciate us back. I don't want to give a fuck anymore to somebody who treat me as nothing.

oh no~ oh no~

2010-10-09T13:45:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD!
I am so tempted !!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg omg I already count !
I can get 5 bras n 5 undies for only RM260 !!

OMG fucking cheappppppppp !!!!!!

oh no~ oh no~
save me~

lovin it

2010-10-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

hair long enuf to curl !!! XD

Mid Term Day 1.. 3 more days to go :)

i must be crazy now..

2010-09-24T22:14:00.007+08:00

Because of some particular reasons.. I am forced not to shop until October...and it's been a month now...everytime stopping myself from shopping. But today is very MISTAKEEEEEEEEE!!

I spent my entire month allowance !!!!!!! I did it againnnn Y_____________Y

Bought so many stuff hohohohoohohoo LaSenza Cotton On Forever21 they're all my loveee~ Omg I duno what to say.. will have to swallow bread for the coming days just to wear nice n new clothes :'( huhuhu~

And these is something I didn't get to buy =( because I gotto choose the best out of the rest~

I luv this but it's a little too short

I luv jumpsuit !!!!

available in blue too..

I luv this so much =( but .................... already broke :'(

:)

Tomorrow !!! Tmr is the day I will have beautiful hair color hohohoohoohohoho

SUPER MISS my hair color !!~~~~~~~~~

2010-09-22T19:38:00.006+08:00

ohhhhh I miss miss my old hair color.. used to touch up every month n' now my hair's like totally yongsui-ness..

dry fizzy with ugly black roots !!!!! oh tak boleh tahan~~~~~~~~

cant wait for this weekend >.< hohoho

I love studies.. Studies love me.....

2010-09-20T18:12:00.004+08:00

These coming 3 weeks I'm gonna be sooooo busy!! There's 3 test this week, another test next week and lastly.....Mid Term Examination next next week!!

And, Management Accounting is SHIT!! I got a feeling that I'm gonna fail my Mid Term coz I TAK FAHAM LANGSUNG!! omg.......I miss Intro to Accounts T______________T I miss Journal, Ledger, Trial Balance !!!

I'm so DEAD.

because I'm stupid...

2010-09-14T00:28:00.005+08:00

It's been 17 days since I last met him. I miss him. I miss him so badly. There's so many times that I picked up my phone, staring at it...wanting to call my baby =( But I know I shouldn't. I shouldn't press the call button.

This feeling is killing me. I stopped crying for a several days, I even thought that I am okay. I thought that I could let go. I thought that it's alright. But I'm so wrong.. I'm just forcing myself till I break into tears again....

What have he done for me to be in such pain? I feel so weak. I was sick the past 2 days, and dreamt of him twice. I dreamt that my baby called me, asking if I'm alright.. I remember I was so happy it was so real until I woke up and checked my phone only to find out it was only a dream. I really thought it was real.....

It's so weird, the days we spent together isn't very long baby.. But every little thing I do, every little thing I see... reminds me of you.. Sometimes I was thinking, maybe I shouldn't have met you at all.. maybe I shouldn't be so soft hearted when u said u wana stop contacting each other for a hundred times.. I should have let you go then.. I wouldn't be in such pain. But I can't.

I miss those days. I miss the morning calls. I miss the good night kiss. I miss how everytime I come back from college I can see your face. I miss how u wished me good luck in my test. I miss to keep reloading my phone until really broke. I miss talking to you until the line cuts off. I miss listening to all your stories. I miss how u got mad if I were too busy to talk. I miss how u convinced me that u were the one baby.....I really miss you.

I've never been so pain, so painful that I can really feel the heartaches. I never never feel like this before. Maybe this is what I get for breaking other hearts, now it's my turn. And I hope it's the last time.. I cannot stand this pain anymore.

Jane's day

2010-09-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

a picture to cheer up this emo blog...

Yesterday was Jane darling's Birthday. Happy Birthday girl !!! We hang out around Gardens n watched 2 movies! That's a little crazy coz I really rarely seldomly watch 2 movies in a day!

I like 'Going the Distance' it's quite hilarious haha :) But it reminds me of my baby, I miss him. sigh........

already gone..

2010-09-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired missing you..

was thinking bout us and when I open my eyes I realize it was just a dream..

2010-09-03T21:57:00.006+08:00

now I finally understand why my ex bought every single perfume I have after broken up. I even scolded him for fucking waste money and wtf? it's ladies perfume!

now I know.. I freaking got the same intention to get the perfume that my baby uses too :( I missed him.. I miss how he smell. It reminds me of him.

That's so silly. How am I going to let go if it only reminds me of him!!!!!! slap me pls.

i am a dreamer.. but now it's time to wake..

2010-08-31T23:18:00.005+08:00

All these while I didn't wanna accept the fact.. Giving myself false hope.. Hoping that something will change, now or later.

well, now I am slowly accepting. Though there is still a deep pain inside my heart, I couldn't say that I could let go coz that's definately a lie but I still got to move on. I can't continue crying myself to bed every single nights, I feel the numb now.

I hate waking up every morning looking myself in the mirror to find how ugly the swollen eyes look. That makes me think, why am I doin this to myself? Does he even care? The answer, No.

So, just wake up.

Leaving someone is the hardest thing to do.. When you love someone as much as I love you..

2010-08-23T23:25:00.004+08:00

why does love have to be so painful? It's been a very hard year for me, to go through so many separations.. feeling down all the time.. how long will this last?

I read snowy's blog.. n I feel so so touch when she mentioned "what i really need is have a real soulmate with me, someone who really loves me & appreciate me.. something valuable that i have... not using money to get it." And also the rest of the entry, feel so touch and true about it. I'm glad that she found the man in her life.. someone who is worth for..

why do I always fall for men that does not appreciate me? Why does men changes so quickly? Where is the "I will always be there for you by your side no matter what happens"? I am so stupid to believe in these...

What does I love you and I wanna be with you means? Everything is all lies.. U fuck liar!

Baby.. I don't know if I should leave you. I cannot accept the fact that I love you but we couldn't be together. This is a painful decision.. and I don't know if I can do it. I can't control my heart. I couldn't stop thinking..

And thinking makes me cry.. so much.. feeling so weak =( Baby I really hates you, but I love you even more =(

I never told you..

2010-08-20T12:54:00.004+08:00

Today finally I have the time of my own, abandoned my blog for such a long time so I thought I should take this time to blog. Semester 2 started I'm taking 5 heavy subjects this time, the Management Accounting, Financial Accounting, Business Law, Intro to Business and Microeconomics. I hope I could cope with the subjects.

The new timetable is crazy, it was from 8 in the morning to 6 evening! So I dropped Marketing and took Micro. Still the timing is a little insane but at least class starts at 10am. So it will b less tiring in the evening. I must really study this semester, it wont b so relaxing like the last one, because everything is getting harder n complicated.

Well, internet at home been terminate for a week. I could only online in the college lab or by using the broadband. Thank God there's broadband but my sister's always using it.

My baby is back and some may thought that I'm in a relationship now but seriously I'm not. It's just complicated, I once missunderstood that I were too but it isn't. Baby I really treasure the times when were together but sometimes when I wonder how we gona end up makes me really sad.....

madness...

2010-07-24T22:35:00.009+08:00

Holiday break has started for more than a week, but never for a day I get to LAZY around at home. Been hanging out almost everyday with friends since the day final exam ended and I joined the gymmmm! XD This how ma knee looks after 2 days of workout...

wtf man

I love the gym man...seriously. Lotsa fit mucsular and 'some' lengchai waHHAHAHAHHAHA I'm gona go as much as I could for the coming 2 months hehehe! Okay....pictures says it all...

This was last Thursday I think, the day we went to sing k =D

after that dessert at SS2 KTZ

the following day or week.....mmmmmmm I forgot!!! Lunch at Seoul Garden ^^

mie n aunt jane

jane n steph

trying out clothes at zara

.......................

I macam balut tuala man! but its not !!! the dress was too low so I..................

trying out clothes at forever 21 XD

dessert at KTZ again...

erm....cam whoring at the garden's............

then, on the same day back to 1u.....and continue cam whore at 1u's...........................

now u see why am I so broke!!! too much good food too much dessert and too much shopping!!! well I spent the whole afternoon at the gym yesterday man and we went to hot yoga wtf my whole body ache like madness today seriously the whole freaking body!

But I love it XD

too much of pain

2010-07-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

whole family got food poisoning.. thanks to Krishnan Curry House! In and out from the washroom for freaking 4 times already T____T and it still hurts now..wtf

no mood!! I need to study! but pain till no mood at all ! ughhh :'( I wanna..........go back to sleep.

countdown 3 more days to final *I feel like jumping off a building*

Btw, Park Yong Ha commited suicide! omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg I can't believe it! used to like him alot =( RIP

so not prepared..

2010-07-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

goshhhhh! Pimples back *angry face* fuk u pimples, u're my worst enemy! I'm so going to see Miss Christina soon coz my antibiotics is finished again. I hate to see her everytime when my face is in bad condition and she'll go like ohhhhhh~ what happened did u put lotsa make up lately?~~~~

NO T____T I did not!!!!!! maybe I got itchy hands coz sometimes I tend to erm.......squeeze *shake head*

Finally I am in the process of completing my Critical Thinking assignment! Honestly I don't know what rubbish I wrote, I just wants to finish it quick as soon as I can.. so I just.. whatever I don't care! I'm a little worried if I got the whole thing wrong.. but.. I shouldn't.. I guess? Omg please don't...

God Bless Me...

take away everything.. but not yesterday..

2010-07-02T15:41:00.006+08:00

Last Tuesday was my very last class until the final exam. Time flies, actually I kinda missed my classmates, because when we were together we tend to talk and gossips alot!! It was really 'good' lol and it distract me from 'hu si luan xiang!' I hate to stay home because when I was alone.. I just couldn't stop thinking..

Exam is on this coming Thursday. Seriously I haven't start reading a single thing yet, when I woke up this morning I got panic! There's one last assignment I need to complete before starting with my revision... gosh.. the Critical Thinking..

I really really really.. hate this subject.. I hope I quickly get rid of it!! It's the worst subject that need not much revision but a lot readings and thinking! yeah that's why it's called Critical Thinking and Reading Skills..wtf

Both my wife~ Had flewwww!! Left me alone here...battle for the exams.. while they.. one went for holiday.. another for graduation~ oh my God! I so pity myself~ well I do not hate exams that much but I really hope I could go somewhere after that. I need some serious vacation.. But well.. yeah I could only 'think' of it.. but no actions.. coz actions needs CASH!

My loupo Melia.. huhu.. I don't know when I'll see her again.. went to her home and spent some time n chit-chat with her before leaving yesterday.. I'm gonna be missing her so much! >.< missing you~~~~~~~~~

and dear snowy.. please buy me something!! I don't want sand ah!~

omg..

2010-06-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

ahahha I've just mentioned in the previous blog post that I dare not spend on clothes already now but...great.. I bought a dress today! ahhaha how fantastic~

I've counted there's 14 brand new unworn dresses in my wardrobe O.O" wtf ?? 14 !! Other than that there's also a few that was worn once only, at most twice! How can..!! And that's only for dresses, tops n shirts are not counted yet...

oh my god..

wtf

2010-06-23T21:51:00.004+08:00

sigh..I'm feeling so fucking moody right now. I'm so worried for my Malaysian Studies assignment due tomorrow, which I have not even start writing a single word yet. And also super broke now, I've over spent too much. I think all my money spent on food...sigh. Every time I hang out with friends, every meal cost almost 20bucks. Imagine if there's lunch and dinner. It would be minimum of 35bucks a day x 30days? wtf?

But of course, sometimes I do eats at home. And also shopping =( huhu I dare not buy anything now, even though I saw so many things I like on the blogshops =( I wanted to buy so badly! But I cant! I need to control myself >.<>.< huhu

Today's my last day of IT class, next week onwards is close book study! home study! omg! all of the sudden I was feeling abit emo when Mr.Gerard announced our last class =( Which means, FINAL is near! And I have not prepare a single thing yet! omg dam gan jeong lo. Next week I will hide myself at home, hopefully can prepare for the exams. So dead!

argh so moody right now I wanna hit somebody!

我不要你走我不想放手

2010-06-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

couldn't sleep...

2010-06-05T11:24:00.003+08:00

Everyone's either getting a semi pro cam or a DSLR lately!!! why am I still stuck with this rubbish cam! T__________T huhuhu sedihnyaa.. mummy pls win lottery today coz I wan't a camera badly, and an Iphone, and a laptop and a vacation too~

I spent for 4 hours and I woke up automatically...what's wrong with me?!!! too much sleep lately? hahahah! maybe! I couldn't sleep last night, fall asleep only at 6am! finally so long I didn't hear the Malay prayers...it gave me a shock this morning when I hear em praying it quickly put me to bed!

Then I woke up 10plus morning...ugh I have so many things to worry right now :'(

I rather stay asleep than awake...

2010-06-04T13:28:00.006+08:00

ohhhh it's been more than a week since I last blogged! I've been very very busy even since my 1 week holiday break had lots of stuff to do and also friends farewell, so we met up for dinner and also sing k heheheh. I can't remember which day was it, all I know is it was last week on the weekdays :)

steamboat luv

dear shannie n baoz

sing k at neway ss15

hehehe lovie my dress~

I've just colored my hair that day~~~

no more black roots =b

And then, last Friday I went back to Taiping visit grandma. Actually was forced to go back I told mom I have tons of assignment I'm rushing to finish right now and I need the internet connection to go online then she said nvm my sis has broadband..

And when I went back...rubbish!!! NO CONNECTION at all !!! maybe yes, but it takes like 5 minutes to load a page....zzzz and then I met up with Mr.Jhun on Saturday he brought me to eat lotsa food laksa, jawa mee, kuey teow, noodle soup, etc! and half day tour around Taiping~ LOL

Thanks for the pics too :)

I look really lonely here =b nice view at taiping lake garden hehe

And then Monday~~ back to college....owhhhhh and received all my mid term results. Hmm well some are quite good but I'm not really satisfied with my Critical Thinking results =( huhuhu but at least I passed =(

Mid Term has just ended and FINAL exam is around the corner!!! which is next month JULY!!!!!! omg damn gan jeong and it's not as simple as the mid term....lotsa essays to write wtf 2000words!???? how can I write so much in such a short time?? T______T I'm so dead.

I really need to study earlier before I regret last minute >.<" I promised myself I must not let myself regret!

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2010-05-26T15:37:00.006+08:00

Half of my holiday break is over =( I need to spend the rest of the days usefully but I don't think I can. There are assignments to finish up, and in another 2 days I'll hav to go back to my mother's hometown.

wtf

I really really really.. hates going back. That's the most boring place on earth =.= 'so far lahh' and it's so fucking troublesome I need to finish up assignments and discuss them with my group members, ask them for their work, send their work to TurnItIn to check for plagiarism, fucking check if their work is done correctly which I have no idea at all...and the problem there's no internet there!!!!!!

but luckily...my sister has just subscribed to the broadband. Thank GOD!! Else I will have to do all last minute work when I come back from hometown, when class already started n start panicking last minute again.

if there were no such thing as assignments... I would b a much happier person..

Btw, I've just colored my hair~~~~~~~~~~~ hohohoohohooo tahan for freaking 3 months d finally got time to color lo! Actually I wanted to touch up my black roots only but the salon was having 50% discount for full head color which is 100bucks only ohohoho

The stars lean down to kiss you.. And I lie awake and miss you..

2010-05-21T14:13:00.002+08:00

I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, If my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here.

I don't want to say goodbye..

2010-05-18T11:00:00.004+08:00

No words couldn't express how I feel right now.
Only if you could hear the sound of my heart, breaking into pieces.

will write something nice after exam ~

2010-05-10T01:12:00.003+08:00

Wow my blog is near to almost 1000 visitors! wahahahah kinda happy to see this though it's not that much actually...and its not in a month or days but in 8months I guess? I'm not too sure when I've started blogging.. hehe thanks everyone who follows my blog =)

Oh right now it's 1.15 midnight I should be going to bed already but surprisingly I'm not feeling sleepy yet coz I've got 12hours sleep last night hehehehhe XD usually I just sleep for 5-6 hours =( very pity

I hate it most when I had to decide what to wear the next day =/ I feel like as if I'm always repeating wearing the same clothes. I only wear those new ones and the old ones are just laying in the wardrobe.

I'll be very busy in the coming 2 weeks...peak season! lol exam fever T__T hope everything goes well and wish I won't always fall asleep while studying =.=" I just can't help it naturally the text book is a very good bed time book! urg

Long time didn't blog I noticed my writing style changed too...wtf

:'(

2010-05-07T17:58:00.002+08:00

I just read Pinky's blog and she reminded me a few things. This weekend I have to prepare for :
1) Accounts tutorial questions - Monday
2) Accounts quiz - Wednesday
3) IT presentation - Thursday
4) IT Assignment - as soon as possible
5) IT midterm exam - FRIDAY ! *and the most important too*
6) Buy mother's day present

urg...I'm so dead. So freaking dead now!!

exams!

2010-05-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

Oh I totally forgot to blog over the days, actually was quite free this week coz not much homework n assignments 'yet' !!! But now onwards I'm so dead!! Because the due date is coming nearer n nearer and mid term exam is on the 14th May!!

wtf which is like 2 freaking weeks more only!! gan jeong already! Forced myself to stay at home on the weekend, dun want to go anywhere except Guardian I need to get a new tube of mascara I cant believe it finishes in 1 month time =.=

Last time it lasted like 2 months or more but now I use it daily lah, compare to before lol. Actually I really really really wants to go shopping but looking back at those things I bought last month made me feel really bad now O.O

Just that month alone I bought 3 bags online =.= But they were really cheap lol so it's alright. urgh I'm really worried of my midterm exam now and never ending assignments huhuuh :'(

why me so ke lian one =( next week need to go to the doctor my antibiotic finish d and also need to visit the salon I'm so freaking busy lo!! used to be a tvb series addict now but I havent touch the tv for damn long time d!!

=X

2010-04-22T22:17:00.005+08:00

YUMI LAI SEEN KUAN
PLease StOP EATing !!

*This is a reminder to myself. Do not eat without considering the effects!!! Think first or regret later! Critical thinking konon.

I don't wanna go out of shape T_____T

vacation mood....

2010-04-18T14:04:00.004+08:00

Im feeling so down right now...was looking back at my old holiday pictures, I WANT A VACATION SO BADLY NOW!

There's nothing for me to look forward. It's just all about college now and I'm stuck halfway in the Critical Thinking assignment....sigh

Things are not going smoothly as I want it too. Everything is going sideways and my temper is getting bad.

I want to revise on my accounting but there are things distracting me argh.

I smile yet break down and cry...

2010-04-09T11:05:00.005+08:00

Quote from my loupo and I have exactly the same feeling right now...

at this very little moment... it's so down... tears cant stop rushing out my eye but, it has no more meaning because.. when there is an end... it's the end... ='(

I woke up this morning, the first thing I thought was about him. I looked into the mirror my eyes was so swollen. I don't know what I can do to stop all the tears. Everything I do and every song I hear somehow reminds me of him.

I thought I was strong enough, but I was wrong. I told myself this is the last time I will cry, but every time I do so I cried even harder. I wish I saved all the tears I cried so I could fucking drown him in them.

sighhh.............

2010-04-08T23:32:00.004+08:00

Someone slap me please..

I need to fucking wake up !!

This song shows how I feel right now...
I think I've been repeating the song for more than 10times...

only reminds me of you

2010-04-07T23:03:00.006+08:00

I feel so relief today coz I've done both the assignments which due tmr, but now when I'm so free it reminds me about this thing that has been bothering me. Once again I have to learn to let go, I choose not to hold on to it anymore as it is only hurting me.

I were very upset but after everything I had been through, I believe this time I can overcome it very soon =) I noticed for the past half year, there were alot of ups and downs. So much things had happened but I do not regret it. I only believe it is for the better.

I feel so emotional while I am typing this, I wanted to cry so much but I forced myself not to, first thing because I doesn't want to look like a panda in college next day, second thing I don't think it is worth crying.

these days....

2010-04-05T17:16:00.017+08:00

I tried to blog earlier in the college lab just now but something wrong with the html and then half of the post just gone missing =.=

So I deleted the whole entry, will write a better one now =) Sorry for everyone who follows my blog, never been updating for sometime. I think it's about 3 weeks!

This is my third week in college (I counted the orientation week inside) so far so good. Thanks everyone for concern, many of my friends had been asking me about it...heheh

Just one thing I didn't like about it is I have to wake up very very early for class =( As early as 6am, I really dislike it's not even bright yet it reminds me of secondary school wth

Erm well, the weekend before college starts went to Kapar 2 days 1 night trip organized by KC! We stayed in his apartment n basically we just hang around in his apartment, alcohol and had seafood =)

getting things off from the car

Kenneth peeping...................

hahaha.......guys do all the cleaning !

So do WeiTerk, very rajin helping out

getting ready for mahjong

After that we went to the Bukit Melawati see monkeys! lol

monkeys here are much tamer than the ones in Bali! those are thieves!

mie

the guys...

view by the restaurant =)

after that went to see Fireflies the Kelip-Kelip! didn't took any pictures as it was too small and mine is just a compact camera =(

After everything we went back to the apartment yum chau, played games and then sleep! The next morning we went for seafood lunch again and it was on WeiTerk coz it was his Birthday! hehehehhehehehe Thanks WeiTerk for the lunch and Happy Birthday =)

pack things go back home..

........and the next day was my first day orientation!! not gona post any pictures about it as it was on facebook n probably everyone had seen it already!

Orientation was oookayyyy, but I really hated the amazing race, not that adventurous person or like to run around lo, especially under the super hot sun! Damn crazy hot!

And last Saturday I went back for cheng ming, another few hours under the sun! zzzzzzzzz!!! Now I hate to look at myself in the mirror, I look so damn dark wth

I'm tanned !!! hate!

I wanted to type f*king hate!! But I just remembered my friend told me not to write foul language on my blog. Hmmm doesn't I have freedom of speech?! just wanna express how I feel and what I think...

haha okay I will try to change coz most probably my classmates are going to read my blog in the future and I doesn't want to corrupt them, gives bad impression or what so called la lol damn fake right?

Anyway this was what I received from the mail past 2 weeks !!!

ma online shop!!!! so damn broke la now !!!!!! some doesn't have plastic coz I already wore them

taada~ happy happy =) hehheheheheh

I'm so tempted to get an Olympus Pen the E-PL1 after reading cheesie's blog. She made it sound so fantastic. I've always wanted a superb camera, I wanted a DSLR but come to think of the size n weight it might be a lil too huge n heavy for me.

Then...I posted on my msn status that "I wanted a superb camera" then the Benmo comes...hahahahah it's so funny why whenever I said something he will object! And try to say alot of things to change my mind~

Last time when I told him I doesn't wants to work, I'm going back to study he was like what u sure? come Aussie work the pay here alot blah blah....

When I have a bf, he would judge that we wouldn't last....

I told him I wanted to be an air-stewardess he was like...nonono this that $*&(O{*^$^*

I told him I want an Olympus Pen he suggest that the Canon G10 is way better....hmmmmm

ummm

2010-03-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

Sorry no updates for the week! Brains not functioning, waking up at 7 for two days, I need time to get used to it! Need to sleep early, no time online. FUCK! today under the hot sun for freaking 2 hours! or maybe more?! stupid orientation. not great at all !!!

aaaa

2010-03-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

wah I'm so sleepy right now, never really had much sleep these few days, been waking up very early, and sleeping so late! Almost everyday got things to do!

Yesterday I went to register for college! And first time today I passed by KDU Section13, just in between Palm Square n Sin Chew Daily only! Look very new hehe

Wah I got the orientation schedule is freaking whole week lo! zzzzzz I tot it is supposed to be 1 day thats it. And got what amazing race =.= damn lame lor!! wth

ugh Mon to Fri also need to go...I'm gona die =.= I can't believe it!!!

Been so long I never messed up with my bathing routine, but today! I'm supposed to brush teeth then wash body, but I wash body forgot I need to brush teeth first. And then when I was drying my body I noticed I forgot to wash face! LOLX!! Then I have to go back to shower...

I was so damn blur lo this morning!!

never knew I needed

2010-03-10T16:41:00.005+08:00

Treasuring my very last days of being lifeless! 12 more days to start college omgfuckicantbelievethis!!!!

The word 'college' is totally a stranger to me, never have I thought that I would be in college, all the while I hated studies but I always had a thought that if I were given a chance to resit for my SPM I would have done it better. Alot better.

I always dreamt of it.

Last week I went to the bookstore n bought all stationary that I need, I just remembered that I gave it all away years ago. I don't even have a ruler with me.

And mum keep mentioning that she doesn't have money already after sending me to college =( Two years later when I graduate mum would retire too. That time I'll be all on my own.

So stress when I think about it =/

don't wanna think about it

2010-03-10T00:05:00.003+08:00

Oh I tried to convince myself...not to shop online anymore, but somehow my fingers doesn't listen to me!

No matter how, I keep clicking to my favourite blogshop!! Omg this is so evil!

Ohhhhhhhh and I really really really feel like getting a new camera, very dislike my Olympus...always come out blurry and the color always DULL, not as contrast like Sony cam...but I like Lumix's wide screen ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I want a superb cameraaaaaaa

shiet I need to forget about all these evil things...dragging me to pokkai-ness.

Today finally I opened all my angbaos hohohoho total got RM453 if not wrong *ahem not that much* I feel like buying a CD player with radio function. oh my that day I already check the price, cheapest is about RM149...should I~~~~~~~

and I asked my mum to sponsor me to Koh Samui but the response isn't very good, she haven't giv me an answer yet, said she need to think think BUT..............

That day went make new specs and contact lens, she paid 600bucks and then said no money already!

oh noooo! shouldn't have asked her to make new specs lo!! But I really need it as college is starting soon!

PINKU specs!!
please ignore my boring face

I didn't wana pick pink at first but mom and sis kept saying 'It's niceeeee......It's nice on you lerrrr'

I tried some other colors and designs but they said look so matured la blah blah blah.

So ok lo~~~ Pink it is ahaahahhahahah

Love Sounds

2010-03-08T01:56:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went Pavilion with Snowy n Desmond, when I come back...slowly look at the receipts and the credit card receipts all add up from last time then I noticed...I've OVERSPENT!!!

Today just 8th and I overspent too much with my own money huhuhu ;( somemore got few online shops, I havent bank in to the seller. Now I dun feel like buying d.

Must stop shopping online! or else very very soon I will pokai~

So my resolution for the moment :
- spend less
- try to quit spicy n fried food...to diet n more healthy (and currently sore throat)
- can also try lessen pimples (hope can la)

I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe

2010-03-06T04:04:00.006+08:00

Tonight I will not cry.
At most I'll stare at the ceiling thinking why am I so stupid.

cause even at my best I wanna let go

2010-03-04T15:11:00.006+08:00

I am officially an emo person now. 5 out of 10days I'd be emo, 8 out of 10days I'd listen to sad songs and make myself miserable.

Today, my eyes is swollen. I was so shock when I looked at the mirror I never seen my eyes so swollen before for a freaking long time....don't ask me why.

Even my double eyed lid are gone, it really scares me for a while...reminds me of the past where I used to be both single lids....how ugly it were wtf

yesterday's outing with besties :)

funny pic lol

nasty truth

2010-03-03T13:59:00.004+08:00

Everyone is sick!!! So do I :'( but just minor sore throat lah, but STILL!!! It hurt for more than 3days edi~ so sanfu. My mum is on MC today and my sis has bad sore throat too *I infected her ahahahhahaha

Oh these days I've been shopping online...the first thing I come online every time is check for updates hahahaha because, need to be fast! before the nice ones sold out! kena few hundred times edi =/

But I bought nothing much lo, just a bag, a few tanks, and a skirt which is pre-order need to wait few weeks, argh tak sabar~

Later, I'm going to meet my loupo! wahh ahhaha finally...she's been back for weeks and this is the first meet up...lol because before CNY everyone was so so busy!

I duno what to wearrrrrrrr, my wardrobe is either kua jeong dresses or plain spag tops LOLX! It's either too casual or too kua jeong...ugh

and.....Hard disc spoilt, all pictures since the existence of digital camera FUCKING GONE!!

FUCKING GONE NOW!!! when my dad told me...I was speechless, untill today I am still speechless!!

Mad Hot

2010-02-26T17:31:00.003+08:00

I think that today is super duper extreme HOT!!

Isn't it????

Beh Tahan !!!

根本你不懂得愛我

2010-02-21T13:25:00.022+08:00

*this is a belated post

Few days hide in the house because attacked by pimples wtf =.=" Finally left house yesterday to attend "ku ma's" 80th Birthday & reunion dinner with relatives.

fat !

mom n sis

when I came home, my bed was looking like this..............................................don't ask why

Care Bears! fav childhood character :) hated plush toys for gift but I really luv this one

now he can teman my emo one =b

sry with the bathroom background lol

i seldom put on makeup nowdays so definately i will camwhore if i do =b

:)

the v calm expression. so hard wtf

new nails

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so emo at you!

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2010-02-19T03:21:00.002+08:00

Fucking no mood plus fucking bored at the same time! geramnessss!

I can't take this anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

RAWRRRRR !!!!!!!!!

I feel so lifeless...everything is so WRONG!! soooo WRONG!

I need to do something with this!

homee~~

2010-02-16T23:19:00.010+08:00

wow, finally I'm home!! *from taiping* so missed my computer! I just checked facebook and everyone was complaining about the weather and seriously IT IS VERY SUPER HOT!! as if it's like sauna, sit very very still dont move at all, and keep the mind very very steady dont think bout anything still SWEAT like mad! so basically most of the time sis n I just hide in the aircond room...we really couldn't stand the heat!

I'm glad that I'm back, it feels really nice at home hahahah. For the 2 nights when I was back at Taiping I slept very very early like 10something, coz there's nothing else to do other than eat sleep eat and sleep.

My aunt went back only on the 2nd day of cny and she brought her dog along!!

so cute wan lor~

This morning woke up so early at 7am just to avoid the jammmm, I'm really sleepy now already >.<

DIY nails....damn proud of myself lo, took like freaking 1hour to apply this! susah giler as I do not hav the proper manicure kit...first and the last time ever! The next time I will get the french manicure sticker!

happy new year...

2010-02-14T03:01:00.005+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to whoever reads my blog =) Today is the first day of Chinese New Year later in d morning I'm going back to my parents hometown edi, wont be online for few days... hohoho I wish myself get lotsa big big angbaos in the cny coz I got lotsa things need to buy after that hahaha

abit sad coz my mum's hometown doesnt haf astro, I wanna watch Joey Yap on wah lai toi !! and I missed his episode today >.< he will be on channel 311 7.30pm everyday to 17th feb! luckily I still can watch the last 2 episodes =b

Every year I like to watch those feng shui lucky thingy on tv. Last time was the 'Yu Yang' lao shi, then lately is mr. joey yap...the first time I heard of him is from the radio last year

now reminds me I need to get a radio after I'm back from cny, with my angbaos =b I wanted one for soooo damn long, 2 years I think since my last one spoilt...and since then I became super outdate with the latest music O.O

I need to sleep soon now it's already 4am and I need to get up at 7am tmr morning. Yesterday after the reunion dinner family and I went to watch cny movie 'All's Well End's Well Too' and Angela Baby was in the show she was SO SO SO kawaiiii!!! soooo cute I couldn't get my eyes off her!!

And she's acting in another show too...called 'Summer Hot Days' =b so looking forward to the show !

here is the trailer

Okay last but not least, wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day too =D

if u could see the love in my eyes

2010-02-10T16:25:00.007+08:00

ahh whatever that I blogged just now...GONE!

...dont ask me why

I'm lazy to re-type everything, so....

I've got a new haircut!

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just kidding!
...but seriously I wanna cut it short"ER" something like this in d pic
SOON but not sure when lol